Sunday, April 29, 2012

Why College?

Why does one go to college?  There are many answers to that question.  I decided to go back to school, because everyone I know is going back.  I was starting to feel like I was below them.  They are all making good money, and I have been stuck at the same job for almost 10 years, not really making much, but I love my job.

I originally thought that I could make more money if I went back to college, but after seeing that the average pay for my career is the same as what I am making now, I realized that probably won't happen.  But, with the experience I already have, plus a degree, I could end up doing well.  I don't like anticipation, so I try not to think about it.

The thought of being in college, graduating, interviews and a new job is very scary for me.  I am not one for change, and I am very timid around people; insecure.  So far things are going o.k., but I did take on too much, and had to withdraw from a class, which is exactly what I didn't want to happen.  But I learned, and hopefully I won't ever have to do that again.  But I am more scared than ever now, that I won't succeed.  I don't feel I am smart enough to actually get a degree.  I wish I could have more confidence, because if I ever want to get a new job, I am going to have to show them that I am confident and I will be able to do the job.

All in all, I really am glad that I am in college.  When it is all over, even if I don't get the job I want, I will actually be able to say that I made a goal and I reached it.  It will be a major accomplishment for me.  I also know that my kids will be proud of me.

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